My Space, My Speech
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009, 12:21 AM
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at times i feel like i wanna be alone.
no one else but just me.
just wanna lie on the bed as if
there's no tomorrow.
but i cant.
there's too many wonderful
people in life that has been there
for me..
know my every move every reaction.
things that i do but i,myself don't notice.
thank you for being there for me.
at the point i need you the most.
no one was there but only you.
you even waited for me to relax n fell asleep.
tapping me on the back.
you make me realise,
knowing that you will be there
whenever i need you,
Thank You.
Today was Beautiful.
you even sang to me.
its true.
"the way you stare as if you see right through to my soul.."
Thank You
For Yesterday,Today and Tomorrow
xoxo bf(:
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Tuesday, September 29, 2009, 2:19 AM
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i read this again and againand wonder why is it so true?
why do we neglect the ones
that was hoping to be with us
to chase someone else?
But in the end the one we chase
do they Appreciates us?
p.s -bf looks like a baby when his sleeping(:
Labels: unappreciate
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Monday, September 28, 2009, 3:53 AM
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iam so insomnia! i cant seem to sleep early no matter what i do and shit happens..iam sorry dear,i noe it has already been two weeks i sleep till late dawn..
its not that i didt do anything,had quick nap..
it just dont seem to work out..argh..
somehow i feel super shitty and mad..
so mad that i dont even know its abt what..
sound nonsense thats what iam having..
and Bf i guess my mad kinda affected u right?
iam super sorry!i didt mean to show it,i didt even noe until u
knock some sense into me..
time check : 4.30a.m
bf is so gonna b mad and dissapointed.
why am i sweating like hell when iam sitting under a fan?wth!
ineedya
Labels: red alert
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Sunday, September 27, 2009, 1:14 AM
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Somehow it does feels good to be back home..
It felt so great that i know i am tired but i just cant sleep..
I feel like doing something to my room!paint the walls may be?
so whose up for it if i need a help?ha ha
On the other note,have fun waking up super early dear for rehearsal tomorrow and all the best(=
Eventually i have a mission..ha ha
Thanz to my Dear Syaz Hudgens =p
"Your blog song,Get some handsome Guys to dance or sing for me ker"
correction its more of HOT Guys and beb not fair la!!
tell me why must it be for u only??ha ha
so i wonder will any guys take this challenge up??for that will just have to wait n see beb..heehee
current mood-saye nak makan pancake,bf jadi tk bf date kite?weeeee..........
It felt so great that i know i am tired but i just cant sleep..
I feel like doing something to my room!paint the walls may be?
so whose up for it if i need a help?ha ha
On the other note,have fun waking up super early dear for rehearsal tomorrow and all the best(=
Eventually i have a mission..ha ha
Thanz to my Dear Syaz Hudgens =p
"Your blog song,Get some handsome Guys to dance or sing for me ker"
correction its more of HOT Guys and beb not fair la!!
tell me why must it be for u only??ha ha
so i wonder will any guys take this challenge up??for that will just have to wait n see beb..heehee
current mood-saye nak makan pancake,bf jadi tk bf date kite?weeeee..........
Labels: flappy having a gig
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Saturday, September 26, 2009, 12:41 AM
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Iam totally speechless just by looking at my blog!*two thumbs ups*
I laugh so hard as i cudt believe it that i texted bby,while he was waiting for the rest.
Suddenly i feel as if we are sharing the blog gitu..haha..
I just ask her for a simple layout and change my profile pic..
In the blue..
I GOT MORE THEN WHAT I ASK FOR!!!
the animation photo and the caption..haha..pandai pandai tulis.i wonder what make u write all tat??haha..BUT thnz!!!
thnz darla,who else if its not my sugar rush honey bby,Kak Feedah Bilson which Anisa Ferera gf..haha..wat a girly name u have brother!heehee
so basically iam still packing stuff,as iam moving back to hometown bby!!!
plus its nearer for u to send me home now!!muahaha!
no more excuses ok syg?haha
here is my convo with Kak Ash n Kak filz
Ash - beb whre u at?
me - at home packing stuff,y?
Ash -pack?go whre?
me - move hs.
ash -whre?
me - b.b ar beb..hahaha*cheekysmile*
ash - oh,nyehehehe..
Filz- eh packing stuff?for what?whre u going?coming to down watch movie or not?
me - cnt make it seh in time,packing to go genting la..
filz - eh u dont mcm2 ar,tell me ler.
me - moving to b.b la..haha..eh tell ash she can buck in at my crib!!woohoo!!
filz-wait,ar.Ash nidya says u can buck in at her plc!!
ash -WOOOHOOOOOOOOO*backgrd shouting*
me - HAHA..happy eh Kak??haha
that means,nearer to abg aphiz right kak ash??hahaha
gatal eh!!haha..
oh ya i wanna see yr manicure n pedicure!!
wee,i miss u hor(:
and syg,org mainkan u lagu,u mainkan i lagu la.ish!macam tk tau je,kate nk joget same same..haha.=p
lastly,somehow i miss my bestfriends.
I laugh so hard as i cudt believe it that i texted bby,while he was waiting for the rest.
Suddenly i feel as if we are sharing the blog gitu..haha..
I just ask her for a simple layout and change my profile pic..
In the blue..
I GOT MORE THEN WHAT I ASK FOR!!!
the animation photo and the caption..haha..pandai pandai tulis.i wonder what make u write all tat??haha..BUT thnz!!!
thnz darla,who else if its not my sugar rush honey bby,Kak Feedah Bilson which Anisa Ferera gf..haha..wat a girly name u have brother!heehee
so basically iam still packing stuff,as iam moving back to hometown bby!!!
plus its nearer for u to send me home now!!muahaha!
no more excuses ok syg?haha
here is my convo with Kak Ash n Kak filz
Ash - beb whre u at?
me - at home packing stuff,y?
Ash -pack?go whre?
me - move hs.
ash -whre?
me - b.b ar beb..hahaha*cheekysmile*
ash - oh,nyehehehe..
Filz- eh packing stuff?for what?whre u going?coming to down watch movie or not?
me - cnt make it seh in time,packing to go genting la..
filz - eh u dont mcm2 ar,tell me ler.
me - moving to b.b la..haha..eh tell ash she can buck in at my crib!!woohoo!!
filz-wait,ar.Ash nidya says u can buck in at her plc!!
ash -WOOOHOOOOOOOOO*backgrd shouting*
me - HAHA..happy eh Kak??haha
that means,nearer to abg aphiz right kak ash??hahaha
gatal eh!!haha..
oh ya i wanna see yr manicure n pedicure!!
wee,i miss u hor(:
and syg,org mainkan u lagu,u mainkan i lagu la.ish!macam tk tau je,kate nk joget same same..haha.=p
lastly,somehow i miss my bestfriends.
Labels: THNZ bby blue sis
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Thursday, September 24, 2009, 1:55 AM
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ok i know my blog is super berabok!!
so iam gonna try to make it shot and simple as i can...
so e 2nd last day of puase which is on Friday was spent with YPians..
i had to rush down all e way from home cos mama ask me to tagg along..
tats wasnt bad but luck was not on my side my feet kene burn by e iron.
yes,stupid i noe but i was in a rush.and now it left a stain..and still painfull.)=
First Day of Raye was kinda suxy for me this year,its not because mom was away in Amsterdam but due to have of my family was away in J.B and they took my grandpa away.i swaer to u it was super sickening!!argh!but as soon as Abg had his prayers done we went down to cck to pay a visit to the ppl who left us,gosh,its kinda sad to see some cementary left untouch for years..even those tiny little ones..i wonder why?is it because they had no time or they just cudt find one..hence iam wishing that this wont hppn to me in years to come..
But on this very day i had a differnt kind of exprience actually,to end the day,i ended up at Bf hs with his family and cousin.due to i wanna try nenek sambal ayam but due to my lateness..sambal ayam is no whre to find)= but its ok,i will look forward for next year or the next year..hahaha..
thanz for the short moment and sending me home..
oh and iam so excited for Night Safari Haloween!!!this is the second time iam going this year,and yes its the first tyme for bby..haha...what you see in Town its Nothing dear!!haha
Finally i had my Outdoor instructor training over at serimbun camp..super ulu i tell u!!
but it was fun!tried new things and made a few new friends(=
also may be iam having camp as early as this coming Monday!
and worse the participants will be ITE students..wahlao..cialan..confirm hard to handle..hahaha
but,hopefully everything ok la.hees.
had a nice yummy dinner over at J.P(=
thnz dear!!weee..
P.S - I wanna have a bby camera!god this feeling is killing ME!!!
Abg Khai,i love you ar..got discount or not??haha.jkjk..gosh hopefully
you still have it wen i collect enuf cash..Dear why tell me so late??haha
AND what surprise surprise???
mummy can i have it for my 18 bdae??haha I LOVE YOU(:
so iam gonna try to make it shot and simple as i can...
so e 2nd last day of puase which is on Friday was spent with YPians..
i had to rush down all e way from home cos mama ask me to tagg along..
tats wasnt bad but luck was not on my side my feet kene burn by e iron.
yes,stupid i noe but i was in a rush.and now it left a stain..and still painfull.)=
First Day of Raye was kinda suxy for me this year,its not because mom was away in Amsterdam but due to have of my family was away in J.B and they took my grandpa away.i swaer to u it was super sickening!!argh!but as soon as Abg had his prayers done we went down to cck to pay a visit to the ppl who left us,gosh,its kinda sad to see some cementary left untouch for years..even those tiny little ones..i wonder why?is it because they had no time or they just cudt find one..hence iam wishing that this wont hppn to me in years to come..
But on this very day i had a differnt kind of exprience actually,to end the day,i ended up at Bf hs with his family and cousin.due to i wanna try nenek sambal ayam but due to my lateness..sambal ayam is no whre to find)= but its ok,i will look forward for next year or the next year..hahaha..
thanz for the short moment and sending me home..
oh and iam so excited for Night Safari Haloween!!!this is the second time iam going this year,and yes its the first tyme for bby..haha...what you see in Town its Nothing dear!!haha
Finally i had my Outdoor instructor training over at serimbun camp..super ulu i tell u!!
but it was fun!tried new things and made a few new friends(=
also may be iam having camp as early as this coming Monday!
and worse the participants will be ITE students..wahlao..cialan..confirm hard to handle..hahaha
but,hopefully everything ok la.hees.
had a nice yummy dinner over at J.P(=
thnz dear!!weee..
P.S - I wanna have a bby camera!god this feeling is killing ME!!!
Abg Khai,i love you ar..got discount or not??haha.jkjk..gosh hopefully
you still have it wen i collect enuf cash..Dear why tell me so late??haha
AND what surprise surprise???
mummy can i have it for my 18 bdae??haha I LOVE YOU(:
Labels: CA ME RA
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Monday, September 14, 2009, 8:11 PM
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Ever felt like the world just turn upside down or pictures turning black and white.It felt like youre not wanted,unknown,invisible or u dont even exist in this world.
But somehow that kind of feeling actually teach me something.
It teach me to be prepared,cos at the end of line your gonna be alone.
No one will stand up for you but at that very moment you will have a sense of freedom.
Cos no one will judge u except allah.
Hence at times its just way better to keep quiet den to say something that is just simply rubbish or at times you kind of look foolish actually.
So you see,keeping quiet does not mean your at the losing end.
on the other hand iam wishing Kak Ash to have a safe trip to n fro Russia..Come back Sg quick n i want duit raye!haha..weewee..oh ya we gonna do our nails!cannot wait super excited...
and syg thank you so much,ily bby..
Labels: zip it up people..
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, 4:36 AM
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Thank you for the Tiger,so cute n small...That was sure Lucky!!
and for the first tyme we only use $1!!!
haha..
while abg did try really hard to get for Kak Feedah..
hence we do have really sweet guys..
right Kak Feedah??heehee
but still we had a lovely night at Geylang
and iam yet to find a nice Purple Baju Kurung!!
shit!
thursday is a must to go ok
Ame n Kak Filz!!
and yes i need new slippers.
Birkenstock would be nice..
nyahaha..
baby save money!!!
all you want,pantat btl!
and yes!
i noe i owe u a shoe..
Jordans here we come...
on the another note
insecure feelings is back..
i hate this so much.
Bee & Syaz & Helmi
its was nice of you ppl
to cheer me up with all those
words,drawing,emoticon,,
gosh..
u ppl really touch me..
but iam not gonna cry just holding back those tears
like always..
its not pretending..
why do such soul exist in this world???
tell me...
Labels: again and again
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009, 2:20 AM
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iam just not in the mood to blog..donoe why.
but for the sake of my Kak Feedah i will post a super shot one!!
lately i have this very bad uneasy feeling..
i even cry not knowing why...stupid yes..but the feeling still stay in my heart.
enuf of that..
oh yes atlast iam not gonna stay as a scumbag!!woohoo
gt a job thnz to kakak..
it somthing new..gonna work as an outdoor instructor..
gosh i cnt wait!!all e excitement..wee..
thnz again kak..
oh n dear hope yr feeling better(:
dont think too much ok and take it slow..
but for the sake of my Kak Feedah i will post a super shot one!!
lately i have this very bad uneasy feeling..
i even cry not knowing why...stupid yes..but the feeling still stay in my heart.
enuf of that..
oh yes atlast iam not gonna stay as a scumbag!!woohoo
gt a job thnz to kakak..
it somthing new..gonna work as an outdoor instructor..
gosh i cnt wait!!all e excitement..wee..
thnz again kak..
oh n dear hope yr feeling better(:
dont think too much ok and take it slow..
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009, 3:05 AM
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i swear i told him i look like an alien!small eyes+square face=Alien =P
i love today just every other day.
Thnz for today dear eventhough its kinda boring n both of us have the lazy sleepy mood but
we still manage to shop again..weeee*jumping*
and evil you!
ever wonder why is my post short??!!!
cos blogger is being a BITCH!
everything dissapear expt the 4 lines above!
and iam lazy to write again!!
oh ya Kak Filz randomly have a super short msg leave by her for me(:
and omg!she is one super sweet twin sister!
this is what she wrote "this is random. but i just wanna let u noe that i love u.gd nyt!"
super super sweet right!
Kak Filz!*hugs* gosh
saturday iam so gonna give u a super tight hug!!
i dont care if you get choked!!muahaha
Labels: I LOVE YOU TOO
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009, 12:38 AM
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Dear Muhd Hanif, I cannot believe that we can go this far with all the shit that have happened.seriously i believe this make us stronger.Every moment with you,there is always somthing for me to look forward
too,no matter how good or bad the situation is in the end you will always be there for me.
It's true what you say,its not how many months or years,cos as long as we still love each other..thats how long we will be together till the feeling fade away..i love you.
I say i never miss you never gone from my mind
You're the soure for every inspiration for every rhyme,every line
Every time that we spend,always feels like the first date
Every kiss like the last,but you still make my knees shake
And how i get excited when i know that youre calling
I wanna type Hi when i see that you log in
Excited and Nervous ,and you have given me purpose
I wanna talk to you but at the same time iam wordless
Baby youre my Everything,you're all that i ever wanted
P.s-It may take one's whole life to give proper meaning to the words, 'I love you.'
iam still looking forward to that trust bby(:
Muhd Hanif youre more den just a Bestfriend.xoxo.
Labels: BEST I EVER HAD
