My Space, My Speech
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 11:41 PM
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hate it when my nose starts to bleed!!
argh!!
sumpah iritating!!
and
I had a great tyme wif Kakak
just now..
weee love u(:
Labels: run along now
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, 10:23 AM
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as i was on my way to netball.
feeling started to change..
it make my way of direaction kinda change.
due to cuz coming over..argh..
so after that i head down to milennia walk
to meet"heidi"
haha.ok my gfs had to chg their name at work.
due to lame reason.
reason-people cnt pronouce their name
so their boss ask them to chg..
haha..so nonsense..
painted my nails over there cos they were bored and
had nothing to do..
so pity them and paid $22 bucks to have it done.
Anep said it was expensive.
but to me not really la cos i had fun!
imagine 3 people to entertain u.
helping to choose the colours for u.
in e end my nails are now hmm...
kinda hot pink la gitu...haha..
thnz to them..
they were fighting among themself just of e colours.
i had my fun of just laughing..hees!
Bbby came by.
i was like feeling feeling nk alone ar.
den this botak boy kept asking and wanting to noe..
so after my nails were done
we head down to marina square to
window shop and at the same time to hunt
for mama birdday present..
marina square for sure was not a place for her..
in the end we had a very torture moment for us..
theres so many things we wanted to buy.
from bags,jacket,shoes..
simply aniting..haha
in e end i bought shades
thnz to tis botak itchy finger!!
and his full of psycho words!
i enden buying them.but it was worth the price(:
walk to Raffles City Link
had a good laugh at Robinson.
tat head back home..
but it doest stp.
in e train Syaz texted..
another laugh..
like Kak Ular says..
Let it be(:
P.S-y do u come to schl when you have nothing to do but to sleep only??
puas hati tidur dekat rumah..lagi mulia(:
feeling started to change..
it make my way of direaction kinda change.
due to cuz coming over..argh..
so after that i head down to milennia walk
to meet"heidi"
haha.ok my gfs had to chg their name at work.
due to lame reason.
reason-people cnt pronouce their name
so their boss ask them to chg..
haha..so nonsense..
painted my nails over there cos they were bored and
had nothing to do..
so pity them and paid $22 bucks to have it done.
Anep said it was expensive.
but to me not really la cos i had fun!
imagine 3 people to entertain u.
helping to choose the colours for u.
in e end my nails are now hmm...
kinda hot pink la gitu...haha..
thnz to them..
they were fighting among themself just of e colours.
i had my fun of just laughing..hees!
Bbby came by.
i was like feeling feeling nk alone ar.
den this botak boy kept asking and wanting to noe..
so after my nails were done
we head down to marina square to
window shop and at the same time to hunt
for mama birdday present..
marina square for sure was not a place for her..
in the end we had a very torture moment for us..
theres so many things we wanted to buy.
from bags,jacket,shoes..
simply aniting..haha
in e end i bought shades
thnz to tis botak itchy finger!!
and his full of psycho words!
i enden buying them.but it was worth the price(:
walk to Raffles City Link
had a good laugh at Robinson.
tat head back home..
but it doest stp.
in e train Syaz texted..
another laugh..
like Kak Ular says..
Let it be(:
P.S-y do u come to schl when you have nothing to do but to sleep only??
puas hati tidur dekat rumah..lagi mulia(:
and mission was fail due to muhd hanif..org bru nk feeling feeling alone..haha.but thnz for meeting me(:
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009, 12:39 AM
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feeling a lil better.
met Syaz and Kau ular today.
we had a chilling session at Starbucks.Wisma..
it was a uber nice feeling until i saw this
fcuking nice shoe at Steven Madden!!
but pantat no size for me n Kak Ular!
Syaz go buy!!since its your size!
oh n Bby shock me by cutting his hair botak!
*melts melts*
like his the first guy ever i like having
a botak hair..
tats was a suprise reaction for me ar..
we both had a great dinner at Mac.
had great fun stuffing fries in each other mouth.
but dear!
tat was disgusting ar letting me eat tat
fries tat u press cos i like e non crispy ones
but still u dont need to do tat ok!!
argh!!gigit baru tau!!
oh n thnz for e jacket.
u ar!very random!
ckp panas,den wen i was about
to board the bus u throw at me
even e bus driver laugh at me..
malu ok!
it was sweet though,thnz again!
P.s - iam always here,remember that k(:
Labels: love it
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Monday, July 27, 2009, 11:51 AM
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i give my thnz to Syaz.
girl u really make my day
by showing tat clip..
i noe its hard for u to share
but
thnz for sharing it with me..
huhu.
and yes i have to agree wif u beb
on e wound tingy..
i have a wound can u hell me Mr??
hahaha..wif tat lil touch of yours..
HAHA
like Syaz says "HANDS OFF MY MEN,WOMAN!"
HAHA
Syaz,relax k!i have My own MR!
haha..
and beb we will migrate to Florida!!
one fine day..
and
confirm it will swept us from our feet
tats for sure!
see u ltr k beb!
For sure its gonna b fun!
Kak ular KENTAL eh!!
Pergi Shopping tk ajak!!
):
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Sunday, July 26, 2009, 1:13 AM
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i feel as if iam in e middle.
middle of wat,i aint sure.
cos each side will tell me diff things.
things at time i dont wish to answer.
i dont even understand myself.
seriously.
iam confused.
wat shud i do?
and
wat shud i not do?
people been telling me this and that
but i want the answer from myself.
its not that i dont like,
i dont mind but i want myself
to tell me what i shud do.
my mind keeps running
as if iam chasing for somthing
but what is it?
it gets worse each tyme
when i feel lost.
but why do i feel this way.
but for what i noe
iam gonna cry soon.
iam crying not because iam
weak or asking for sympathy
that so not me.
i cry cos iam mad at myself!
not knowing what to do.
and i cry cos i have my own reason
and
i cry cos i dont want to keep it inside my head.
cos its too much already..
P.S-trying so hard to hold back my tears.But y??
Labels: i Hate this Feeling, shit
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Saturday, July 25, 2009, 12:21 PM
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its satrday and iam awake pretty early due to certain reason.
since iam awake,y not i post early since i had somthing in mind.
well i did some falsh back on this week..
i had this question in my mind,
"why is it so easy for people to lie but so hard to tell the truth?"
iam not mad at any things.
But hey just take a moment an think.
do i even deserve this?
do u apreciate for wat i had done?
do u even think about me at all?
do u even noe i exist?
do u even noe y iam still here?
or
do u even noe why iam still standing even though what i had gone through?
the question is DO YOU EVEN CARE?
those are just random question that i had in my mind lately.
i even wonder if iam strong enough to handle all this.
but wif people ard me tat makes me laugh,
those are the people that make me strong.
i give my thnz to them.
it can b anyone..
inside me wants me to pour out everything and cry.
But to WHO?
thats the question.
i noe it can b anyone,but WHO is the right person?
i noe Kak Ular and Kak Ash are one of them they
always say to me tat iam here if u need someone to talk too.
Kak Ular have help me alot,too much.it may b just words
but each words always makes me feel bless to have her.
and i give my thnz to Bby cos his the one that so called bring me to meet
Kak ular..
u dont noe how worried i was.
wanting to noe if cud acpt me or not.
even your brothers dear.
but lucky for me,u not only give me Kak ular but your family.
and i really do apreciate them for accepting me.
i nearly cry wen kak ular text me and says"my sister"
it may b just 2 words but it bring alot of meaning to it to me.
thnz again.
but all this that has happen,is it just a test for me?
i also wonder why does people have to comment about you when they dont even know u?
just like Kak ular says..Why??
cos u may did somthing wrong to them?
but i dont think so.
but if u did,u dont need to tell the whole world about it right?
it should be between u and that person right?
these are all just random question that i always have in mind.
but why does my heart ask me to cry.somthing is at miss here.
i did cry,just few days ago so why should i cry again right??
if crying wast tired or hurt,
i would have cry my way out the whole life.
i will only have this kind of feelings when somthing is about to happen.
so whats tat something?i wonder...
pls let it be good or bad,i hope i can handle it.
p.s - mi,iam not gonna be there for u 247 and i noe u noe it,so get your head up high and take a moment to breath those fresh air.cos wen u do,u will stop and think.and iam sure u noe what to do..for now i can be yr listening ears but iam not sure how long..my advice is yours to take but its u who make the decision!Stay very Strong even at e hardest time bro(: watever it is i give u my deepest support cos u noe u been there for me(:
p.s - why do i have to go through all this??
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Thursday, July 23, 2009, 11:33 PM
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Lately ppl ard me are getting sick.
Kak Feedah Bilson,Get Well ASAP!!
Dont you miss your babygirl??haha
So stop making yr swiny sound and get back up!
cos yr missing stuff tat hppn in e house.
u noe those non stop laughter!
Bby,u too!Get Back up ASAP!!
iam missing yr laughter,wacky face,yr everything!
so rest well okok n have a good sleep even
if u sleep like a swine its ok.
as long yr getting better,k bby!
and gosh las esp of Prison Break
make me cry..
haha..weird.but i find tat Scofield did everyting
is because he simply truly Love every one of them..
2 Thumbs up to tat show!!
and now its timr for me to sleep(:
nites ppl!
Kak Feedah Bilson,Get Well ASAP!!
Dont you miss your babygirl??haha
So stop making yr swiny sound and get back up!
cos yr missing stuff tat hppn in e house.
u noe those non stop laughter!
Bby,u too!Get Back up ASAP!!
iam missing yr laughter,wacky face,yr everything!
so rest well okok n have a good sleep even
if u sleep like a swine its ok.
as long yr getting better,k bby!
and gosh las esp of Prison Break
make me cry..
haha..weird.but i find tat Scofield did everyting
is because he simply truly Love every one of them..
2 Thumbs up to tat show!!
and now its timr for me to sleep(:
nites ppl!
Labels: love them before its too late
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, 12:14 AM
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Lets just say that i loved my brother when he strummed the guitar and sing at night. Its like gosh!How nice of him..i apreciate it alot!
it feels good to have yr own Dj in e house!!haha
i can even request songs.
so den he will start singing for me.
opps dont b jealous Kak Feedah
muahaha!!
so earlier on Syaz and me had this convo
on y is it hard for guys to open up
in the end we know why
and we find it funny.
i love this,love this random chat tat syaz n me have.
it can b fromnothing to anything and we will drag it until we find somthing new to talk
it may sound boring,but its not!
seriously!
for what i noe,i had a fun time chating with Syaz i always look foward to chatting cos
we both noe somthing new gonna hppn..
Right Syazhudgen??
haha..
oh ya i find that helping other out is easier den helping myself..
but watever it is iam happy to help others!
and bby,u do know that iam waiting for u to open up tat tiny winy degil heart of yrs.
even if it hurts,its ok.iam willing to hear u out!
for what i noe,i had a fun time chating with Syaz i always look foward to chatting cos
we both noe somthing new gonna hppn..
Right Syazhudgen??
haha..
oh ya i find that helping other out is easier den helping myself..
but watever it is iam happy to help others!
and bby,u do know that iam waiting for u to open up tat tiny winy degil heart of yrs.
even if it hurts,its ok.iam willing to hear u out!
But are you willing to share?
tats e ques..but i noe yr reason.
i respect u though(:
P.S-iam still your bestfriend inside(:
P.S-iam still your bestfriend inside(:
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009, 3:29 PM
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Lets keep it short.
Iam Sick and Tired!
P.s- How i wish i can rinse my Throat!
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Sunday, July 19, 2009, 4:38 AM
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Morning Earthlings!! Iam back frm watching Harry Potter at JP.
It was a suprise movie frm my mum.
It was so random!
My sis and i was like 2 mangkok
cos we didt noe abt it!
argh!
plus sorry dear u were not there..
i accompany u go watch it k!
or ice age?or watever movie tat
has CHANNING TATUM in it!!
i hav a tiny winy ting for hym..
so syaz no worries u can take yr Jacob away frm me.
his not NEEDED!!
muahahaha!!
SPEAKING OF IT!
EVERYBODY shud watch Harry Potter!
its a great show..
iam at home and iam not yet to go to bed!
tats about it..and Dear i so need my ez-link back ok by ltr!
or not yr DEAD! =p
current mood - i love this silent moment(:
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Saturday, July 18, 2009, 1:20 AM
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ohohohoh it may too late already la..but thnz for e necklace above bby!
it was given during TBG
for our 4 months anni.
but indeed thnz to my forgetfulness..
sorry again..
hees.
this few days i hav been sewing my baju kurung..
haha..so early sia..anyways.
bby was enjoying the laughter
while i was having a bit of difficulties at e strt.
haha..but i manage ok in the end(:
woots to me!!
current situation,
IAM HUNGRY!
P.S- Syaz sorry i rompak gmbr(: hahaha
plus what am i suppose to do for 7 weeks of not schooling??
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Thursday, July 16, 2009, 12:18 AM
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late to school its nothing new
but
bby walking to the train and sending me till J.E
was new(:
he waited for adib to lpk till
he falls aslp i guess..hees.
oh n syaz!
dont la wash eye alone beb!
hahaha...
u noe i noe(:
looking forward to
a date after schl
sound nice right?
wee wee wee
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 1:29 PM
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lately i have been so tired.
my eyes just wanna go zzzzzz
haha,yesyes due to not enough sleep.
so ystd i end schl at 4 plus.
head down to BB to meet dear.
den heaad down to meet our dearest Liesha.
she all grown up i must say,i still do remember.
Liesha-"Hanif Liesha Boyfriend"!LOL
she will always be so manje with hym..
i wonder y..haha
so after tat we head down bk to bby plc.
He help me with my Website Assignment.
but He have Failed to help me with drawing
cos we were both busy WebCam with SyazHudgen!
it was uber fun la,i bet syaz must have laugh
her ass of all e way.
we were even kind enuf to let her hear songs while
we had dinner(:
Abah cooking was so damn Nice and HOT!!
Bby trick me!
Letting me eat 1 whole cili padi!
argh!
thnz eh n he left me wif mama n abuwan
akward moment,even though i always talk to abuwan
but still!
it feels weird and funny and thnz.
haha.
He even said i was lucky(:
thnz again,i do apreciate it!
ohoh n ya bby gt a no. frm some girl while msn!
haha..kaww!
but we did hav FUN!
we both head down n fetch my sis at town..head back home
at 1am!!
but its was uber fun.
n
Dear n i did some talking.
hees.
pls,y do u noe so much abt me??
every move.every reaction.
i noe i was yr Bestfriend.
n now
iam happy to be yr Girlfriend(:
P.S- i envy u cos u gt a week off frm schl!!thnz to yr sick classmates!!-.-
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Sunday, July 12, 2009, 9:23 PM
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basically i just love this picture alot!i donnoe y
may b bcos Abuwan sudd join us.
haha.
oh ya,i bought kain for baju kurung.
its like so fast la,cos my mum sewing it so wtd.
and iam guessing i have an Outing wif bby cousin,
Ain to catch a movie together.
its kinda shocking,haha
but iam sure its gonna b uber fun!!
so its gonna e first tyme iam going wif his cuz.
abit scared but iam prepare i guess.. :s
gonna run along to sleep now.
morning ppl its monday already!
PFFT!!!
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Friday, July 10, 2009, 2:40 AM
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I have this conversation in my mindsince way back.
but i always thought it was just
those things that will go but not come back.
but i was wrong,so ya it did came back.
always i shud say.especially when i look at my surroundings.
i often think tat hey i shud be glad tat i didt spend much time with hym.
but at times i wonder,whats the feeling to have hym in my life.
hym,may b just any guy,hym,may b just any prsn in this world.
but hym the one should be there for me all this while.
where is hym?
hearing stories from people make me ask myself.
if he can b there for others who he may not know.
why cant he be there for me?
but trying to find or feel he in my life.
iam scared i may not know how to react.
for who he is,i wish he could atleast be a man
and came up to my face and tell me he love me.
atleast i know what it feels like.
i have been keeping this too myself but i guess i just let u
its way easier so tat i wont feel it coming.
but at the same time hearing story from people.
i felt glad that he was away from me.
far from what i wanted.
far from all those things behind hym.
or should i be proud for who he is in the other world?
i envy them cos they get to noe u more den me.
i bet u remember their name..every each and one of them.
but do u remember mine?forget it,how i wish..
i dont even know wat to call u.
but what i noe,i give u my thnz for bringing me to this world.
whre i noe way better people who treat me better den u.
i wonder where are u now?
do u even noe me if i was right infront yr eyes?
i bet not.
the question is,will u be even there when iam getting married?
it may b in years to come.but.
i bet no!
so i still have this feeling of telling you
right in your face,tat u shud b
ashamed of yrself cos u just
miss the fun i had with my Big Family.
ashamed not knowimg how i grow up to be.
he who even ashamed cos u dont even noe tat yr daughter
might b even get married without u knowing it.
pfft!
i still am lost on what the
meaning of
daddy love?
cos i never had a tiny winy taste of it before.
thnz again for he who bring me to this world
and i give my respect to u for that ONLY!
morning people,4.21am i should run along to sleep(:
Nidya.N
Labels: iam glad u wont there for me
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Thursday, July 9, 2009, 12:10 AM
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This guy above.My brother,Muhd Haiqal
Kak Feedah Bilson other half
Just wanna wish all e best for tommorow,
His having an interview at Cantonment.
His all prepare i should say!
All dress up nicely(:
Good luck abg,i wish u the best!
much love,
Nidya Nadhira
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Wednesday, July 8, 2009, 3:01 AM
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I have Flu
and
Stomach Flu.
its so crap.
been feeling tired
but i frecking sleep e whole day.
iam so a total scumbag!!
haha
so dear had e same feeling
and syaz say
"kate bfgf mesti la satu hati"
haha.so malay eh syaz!
haha
oh syaz kept on saying tat
my siblings n me look like a triplet!
tats so not true,ok syaz
both of them are like so tall
and me..
dont even strt..
haha.
i have tis feeling tat iam missing somthing.
mayb bcos of the ramdom talk i had on sunday.
but watever it is iam HAPPY
with what i have now(:
thnz again.
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Sunday, July 5, 2009, 11:34 PM
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he says"feeling feeling tribute la"
Kak Feedah Bilson,thanz for layaning yr babygirl nonsense!we rock beb!more den abg(:
xoxo to u!
They say its their good side..haha
TBG!!lil TrisyaCullen
nvr fails to make me laugh my ass off!
shes damn pretty n cute!
and tats a FACT!
here lies two Twillight no.1 Fani shud say!!haha
its fact!
SyazHudgens and lil ErliyanSwallen
and we say FAT is beauty.haha
interesting bunch of sister.
diff in every way
but same
in a way.
tat is to Dance..
it calls PASSION
i shud say..
u gurls are woah,
i give my respect to u beb or shud i say Ling??
haha =p
Act i didt ask for this pic laBUT since Kak Ula send to me
i will just post it.
SFB
gt nothing much to say cos i donoe
whre to strt..
haha.
just stick to yr true clours..
haha..ok lame-__-
ok iam like really bored!haha
Kak Ula,been spending my time with her lately.
to think back at times
i find things tat are common in us!
haha.
esp those kental n merepek stuff!!
haha
iam starting to miss hanging out wif
her and laughing our ass off
everywhere we go.
Muhd Hanifwhere shud i start?
The days that we spent going
for shoe more shoe bag food
i had my days with u
bad or good
and iam happy tat
we cn go through it
even though
i crack at those simple things lately
u were there to wipe those tears away
i dont even noe wats wrg with me this few days
but iam thankful tat u were they to
entertain my crap till late morning.
thnz again.
iam still abit lost not myself i can say
but not gonna think much abt it
iam gonna take yr advice.
and i will try to b strg k dear.
7 yrs pls come sooner(:
haha
love you
Nidya.N
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Friday, July 3, 2009, 12:12 AM
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Finally we had our
Transformer date!!!
The show itself was AWESOME!!
Its a MUST to watch it!!
oh n e surprises its not stoping i must say..
i dont have to wait for 5 mnth i guess dear.
Thanz ALOT!!
i cnt express it out but i
apreciate alot for my new shoe!
bestnye keluar je ade kasut bru!haha
gosh u really suprise ME!
if there were a nice shoe and i spot
one iam so not gonna tell u la!
i feel so bad la..
even though i get u a shoe ystd but
still no need la..u ar..gigit baru tau!!
but i uber LOVE it!
thnz dear..thnz for everything(:
i cnt wait to wear it!!
to...hmmm.
haha..
Syaz stop making me feel bad lor.
haha..abt e class..
hmm..u ppl ar..
better not b fishy!!
but iam excited lor!to meet u gurls!
oh n dear is asking me hear Tamia Song's.
ok i just did n its nice very meningful(:
Dear
i feel so bless having u right by myside.
thanz and i love you
i cant get enough of you =p
Nidya.N
Labels: love
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Thursday, July 2, 2009, 12:54 AM
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Lets start off with TBG!
it was awesome shit!
i had uber fun wif Kak Ula!
to n fro ok ppl,non stop laughing even during the
concert itself!
we had so much common ting!
haha..
to brush it off we had supper at simpang bedok.
another awesome tyme wif Danish.
His so Funny.."tepok dada tanye mane air jatuh"haha
he was like counting riggit to sg money.
haha..wish i cud meet hym again..
dear slept over at my plc..
wif full confident he said he wont slp!
BUT he was lying on e bed tk sampai 5 min he doze off!
THNZ DEAR!
argh..
So we celebrated our 4mth buying Vans shoes n Lots n Lotsa eating!!hees
met old friends at RC
den head down to town
where we were wen shoe hunting!
actually it was for me la..
but in e END someone saw his shoe first!
hiyakdus..
it was not plan for hym to get it la.but
he was goi gaga over it tat i get it for hym(:
wat can i say,PURPLE!!
so we had a heavy lunch at Lucky Plaza.
den to Far east for Dessert,imagine tat..
right after it,gosh i donoe wat hpn to hym..
he was extra uber nice n sweet..haha
the dessert names is damn interesting!
he had Hot Chick and I had Breakfast in Bed!
sounds yummy right!hence it is Yummy!!
den Back to more shoe hunting!
i had my shoe so last limit!!
thnz to e ppl!
iam like somebody ar..
they were effing nice
they really did help me find my shoe!
thnz to those people who work at Leftfoot!!
Dear:
i love u,just 3 simple words which means so much dear.thnz for all those kisses on the forehead u make me feel secure u make me feel n know whats the meaning of being love by someone,thnz for teaching me all the stuff.thnz dear i really apreciate it.its been 4 mnths n iam happy with it.like u say still counting.thnz for e song,gosh u make me cry though.i didt expect it frm u.thnz for all those simple things u did.iam proud of u,e new u,e hanif tat i noe 4yrs ago.the past it means nothing to me anymore cos i noe u hav chg.today,e tyme i spent with u.is unimagineable.i may not find e right words to write here,but i noe u noe it..and hopefully we can take it to the next level dear.with alot of praying n patience.insyaallah.amin.
gotta go,gonna continue chatting wif my Bestfriend turn Boyfriend(:
Nidya.N
